HAPPILY SCREWED

Life has taught me a lot of things last year. And last year is the season I will not forget for the rest of my life. The new year just started, I want to recount all the things and events that happened. I’ve met a lot of people, from strangers down to familiar faces. My life turned into a circus. It gradually contains the fact that everything will be just like then, a normal lonely one but the truth is, I am more proverbial in many ways. Ways that actually provided me a reason to move forward and think of the probable things to do to be the person I wanted to be. And here, look at me I have a lot of friends to reckon on and myself to trust and depend on.

I learned more about love per se. One of those was not to rush it. One must be responsible for their feelings unlike what I did; I made few wrong decisions that place me into a situation that complicates everything, like cancer. The faster it grows, the faster it destroys my system, painless but inside me, dear Lord I’m a piece of dying entity. Love is unpredictable; so far that’s a fact. New people came into my life, gave me reason to regard as that they could possibly the next one who I will fall in love with or worst the next person falling in line to hurt me. But everything has changed eventually about me falling in love. I’m not like that person I am before, the person who loves to expect without dealing reality. But now I have no expectations at all, I am more familiar of me expecting for something from someone. I always consider the past, you know, once you’ve hurt more likely you will play it in reverse to get even. I’m like a child playing in a playground full of kids then I’ll choose someone who I will play with. Love for me now is no biggie. I’m still not ready to love someone again maybe. I live through this messy life, I chose to live with it and I am happy about it. And if the right person for me comes along I’ll make sure it’s the right tick of time and me ready to love again, if it happens sooner, that’s a bonus. But now, I’m enjoying this, this piece of heaven right here where my feet are glued on.

Sometimes it takes a lot of suffering for you to get the chance to show everyone who you are, how strong you are and in due course you can tell everyone this…you can hurt me several times but you can never destroy me ever. Just like that, I can prove to them most especially to those who’ve hurt me that no one or nothing could ever be a great wall of china blocking my way on happiness.

-icemontejo,happilyscrewed